But then my mom kept saying, along with everyone else, that I would ruin my life. And sure, it would; but still I didn't want to have an abortion. I mean I wanted to finish school and all, but this was a part of me. It was half my life. But I gave in from all the pressure and had the abortion.

I regret it so much. I have really bad depression. I always want to sleep my life away. I think I have murdered someone who didn't do anything and I should be with him. Now I am afraid to have sex. I can't trust anyone any more. I think about it all the time. There is a part of my life that is dead. The father wasn't even there for me and hasn't called once to check on me at all. I want to hate him so bad because he also made me do it.

Now I'm afraid to have kids. I'm scared I will take it out on them. Now I'm just so empty. I have nobody, and I don't like listening to my mom tell people what happened. I close my ears and scream until it goes away. Then I sleep a deep sleep and don't want to wake up. Abortions are irreversible, and there is no turning back. People say I will get over it, but I know deep down I won't.

-- Kayla - I close my ears and scream until it goes away.