Amarisa's Abortion Story
It Never Goes Away
I was a college student, living on my own in a large city on the West Coast; and I was going to be "a somebody." I had great plans for my future, and a child did not fit my lifestyle. The baby's father and I agreed to an abortion, refusing to even think that we were actually taking the life of a living child.
After the abortion I developed a severe internal infection and a fever but luckily did recover unscathed. Mentally I refused to deal with the reality of what had actually happened, and it seemed for a while that I coped quite well mentally, or at least I thought so.
But the older I get the more often this memory haunts me. Whenever the memory came to mind, I just didn't let myself continue thinking. I mentally changed the subject immediately. I can't do it anymore. It's truly a tortuous heartache living with this ever-present guilt. The baby never had a chance to be loved by anyone.
If someone reads this who is contemplating abortion, perhaps she may change her mind and let that child have the chance to live and be loved. There are thousands of people who would love to adopt that baby. Besides that, later on when it finally hits your heart and conscience, you won't have to be facing the fact that you killed your own child. You may not feel the guilt now, but someday you will, and it will never go away.
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