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Boys and sex,...my two worst enemies. Boys and sex... my worst enemies. I lost my virginity when I was 16. My boyfriend at the time put some crazy ideas in my head. He told me I was the one and he'd "love me forever." Forever didn't seem to last too long. Two weeks after I gave him what he wanted, he left me. |
Not only did he break up with me, he cut me out of his life completely. I was depressed, heart broken, and felt I wasn't good enough. I didn't go to school for two months. I couldn't. I had no energy. I was exhausted mentally, physically, and emotionally.
After I got over that and moved on, I was raped - something I would never wish on anyone! It was hard, but I worked on learning from it.
But now sex has ruined me. I tend to give it to people I care about so much who don't feel the same about me. In the end I am the one hurt. Just recently I had sex with someone I've like for a while, and now I might be pregnant. He's still standing by my side, even though he just looks at me like a friend.
But I'm all alone in this while he's out looking at other girls and talking to his ex. I'm crying and praying to God I'm not pregnant. I'm going on my 11th day of no period. Every day gets harder and harder. I know if I never had sex from the start, I wouldn't be giving it away so easily as a way to receive affection.
Now I'm by myself in what seems to be a big mess and mistake. So any girls who are considering sex... one word... DON'T. When the time is right, you won't have to consider it, it will come naturally and it will feel right.
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